Saturday, December 29, 2012

My Aunt Mary

Last night, I sat thinking...about Death and Heaven..and My life...and just started writing....

My Nana-Charlotte, my precious Nana that I care for at this time-and chuckle about on Face book occasionally, has a twin sister named Mary. Mary is living her last days here on this earth-Our precious Mary is getting ready to meet Jesus. Her window is closing.
My pastor occasionally makes the statement "Sudden death...Sudden glory." This statement thrills me...gives me chill bumps and I have just been repeating this phrase over and over in my head when I think and pray for my Aunt Mary.

Researching the word Glory I found-Awesome splendor, astounding beauty, Heaven-perfect happiness, Adoration, praise, and thanksgiving offered in worship and Majestic beauty and splendor; resplendence.

WOW-from her last breathe here on earth, in her sickly frail broken body to "Sudden Glory"-no more hurts, sorrows, worries, no more tests, and IVs and medications and ambulances, no more sadness-"Sudden Glory"

She can breathe without an oxygen tank! She can laugh and have long conversations and meet a son that left her at very early age..she can hug my son for me! Most importantly-She gets to be with Jesus, sitting at His feet, worshipping Him “Sudden Glory”-from the moment we are born we start working our way to this moment-An eternity spent with Jesus! Can you even imagine? She gets to go HOME-

Will we mourn as a family? Sure will, because such a wonderfully kind and thoughtful and quiet and meek lady is no longer here on earth with us-Will my precious Nana mourn-her heart will surely never be the same again-until they are reunited in Sudden Glory-
I have such wonderful memories...My mother has such wonderful wonderful memories..I have heard such great stories passed on from my mother about Aunt Mary-She was a stable person in my mother's childhood, she loved her! I love my Aunt Mary for that alone-She loved my mom-My Nana who was raised in an orphanage with Mary has such wonderful memories and stories that she loves to share about “HER” Mary.

All this to say...I have been thinking I am turning 40 soon (if my brother is reading this..he is laughing) and it is unbelievable to me..it can't be..it can't..It’s flying by..and before you know it, my body, my physical body will be winding down and tired-I'm realizing the older I get that this life is just a passing glimpse before we spent eternity in Glory..It’s a window, a small window of time that I have been entrusted with to make a difference, to serve others, to love others, to impact lives for HIS glory! It's not about Tracy, Tracy's needs...desires...wants...they will be left in the dust..they will not be remembered..and yet so often I find myself forgetting and falling into this rut..Forgetting the window was nudged again...

We get so wrapped up in the day to day, minute to minute life that we forget the whole picture..we look up from time to time and see that the window is ever so slightly closing...and my purpose was? My legacy was? And my achievements were they mine or were they for His Glory? Where they comfortable choices, or were they uncomfortable-but the most profitable to others. Did I go after physical assets or eternal assets? What legacy will I leave behind? Did I glorify myself? Or My Savior? What child's life did I impact, what elderly person did I make more comfortable, what next door neighbor did I witness to-not just by words but by actions...My finances..where did they go-did I allow your money to serve others? To fulfill your purposes??

When the day comes, that my window indeed closes, and I will stand beside my Aunt Mary in "Sudden Glory" I want to hear the words-"Well done MY good and faithful servant"
C.S Lewis so appropriately wrote at the end of the Narnia books as his characters entered Heaven.
"The things that began to happen after that were so great and beautiful that I cannot write them. And for us this is the end of all the stories, and we can most truly say that they all lived happily ever after. But for them it was only the beginning of the real story. All their life in this world and all their adventures in Narnia had only been the cover and the title page: now at last they were beginning Chapter One of the Great Story, which no one on earth has read: which goes on for ever: in which every chapter is better than the one before."

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